You ever feel like there’s something missing when you look at things?
Every so often I get to feeling down about myself. It doesn’t take too much to trigger it, but at least I’m getting better at recognizing it and working my way through it. As far as I’m concerned though, the worst thing about it is it often leads me to start questioning the value in any of my writing.
Now, I’m not talking about taking a critical eye to something and trying to identify what will make it better. I think most people would agree, that’s an integral part of being a writer or any other creative process. What i mean is the automatic reasoning that something is worthless simply because I wrote it.
So far I’ve been lucky that most people who’ve read the pieces I’ve posted have been complementary. They still pointed out areas that needed work but so far no one has dismissed any of it as worthless. I know I’ve got a long ways to go and I know sooner or later I’ll come up against someone who trashes me. That just seems to be the nature of things. For every good thing that gets said, there will probably be a corresponding negative.
The main thing I need, is to ignore the voice in my head, when I get to thinking like that. I hope, that as I develop as a writer, it will become easier to do that although I’m not sure it will ever go away.